Do you have someone you would have "gone" straight/gay for but let them get away? How did you get over it?

I like this dude from my school named Nick O'Neil. The only problem is he tends to be heteroual while I, on the other hand, tend to be most likely metroual; however, I care nothing about my appearance. I'm only metroual in that I'm emotionally attracted to both women & men, I'm physically attracted to just women, & I'm ually attracted to only women. Nevertheless, heteroual & metroual are both straight. I only like him as a friend; however, I like him more than ANY other DUDE. There is also this 1 chick from out-of-school where I've lived before who I like, too, named Jilian Rossow. She's the ONLY woman/person I've fallen IN-LOVE with. I do emotionally feel for both Nick O'Neil & Jilian Rossow. Am I straight, bi or gay?