I am totally losing my mind?

Just to begin with i suffer with severe anxiety and depression and i am on meds. ok i snapped about a month ago. my hubby and i are moving to new place after 5 years here we have a 5 year old son who just finished 4 k and is now going to be going to school full time. He had made friends over the year and i talked to some of the moms and talked now they want to hang out and that freaks me out. It open a flood gate of thoughts that are slowing killing me like should i leave my hubby which then leads me to felling empty and suicidal and i don't know what that means. I cant stand being near my mother or father since they cause tension with my hubby and all i am is angry sad and hopeless feeling right now. i know i need to seek help but what if she tells me to leave my hubby i cant take it i just cant. am so damn scared. I just want to be happy like i was and have a peace-full family life. any help please.I cant eat or sleep